There
was this boy at school, something of a bully, who managed to buck the easy by
being rather good at lessons. I didn’t think then that he used to steal from
the smaller boys or scrap at the slightest look because of his face. It was
burned all down one side, the skin oddly plastic, puckered about the jaw, yet
he had this tremendous mop of hair that he would push back when he was angry.
His mother had died from the doodlebug that had fallen in the garden of their
house, and his father had heard the news the day before he had advanced into
Monte Casino and not returned. I believe he lived with an aunt, which not
unusual then and indeed comparative to these more modern times quite the
wholesome family unit. I remember that doodlebug. Or I think I do. Perhaps my
mind added it because as I say what I do recall is my mother pushing me away on
that sunny day when high above that wub-wub-wub of the jet engine stopped.
Across the old aerodrome the sound of
the bomb is tinnitus in my ears. There are grass fires on the edge of the
crater where Mme. Roux’s atom bomb Diana (which was you might recall no atom
bomb at all) can no longer be seen, and will never now be again. I stand here,
rightly stunned. Near everyone in Cecil’s private army was there by Diana in
the food queue. Close by a ferret armoured car is on its side. At first I think
I can hear laughter but in my muddled state it takes a moment to realise it is
cries, shouts. There are people between here and there broken and terrible.
Somebody lies naked, stripped by the blast. It’s awful.
Cecil is saying something, “... best go.”
“Yes, quite,” this from Mme. Roux. There
were patrols and of course sentries, I see some now running towards the ruin.
“What the bloody hell happened?” I sound
cross, but I’m terrified.
“Diana went bang, darling,” says Mme.
Roux.
“It wasn’t a bomb, you just said as
much!”
“Not an atom bomb,” she cannot help but
delight in her cleverness. It seems wicked to me. All those dead people might
have been horrors, but still. I say as much but Mme. Roux waves off my
complaining to say, “You couldn’t get a bomb in here, unless they were expecting
one. You were meant to wave the old Geiger about that Bittersweet had prepared
and clickity-click, as expected. It never occurred to think it might still have
an awful lot of the flowering stuff inside?”
“Is this really the time for exposition?”
Cecil though facing us still is walking backwards and away. He at least looks shocked
by what has been done; what he must have known was going to happen. “This ain’t the
time for boasting.”
“If there’s no time for boasting then
there’s no time for anything, darling,” insists Mme. Roux, but she walks after
him anyway.
“But why?” I say.
“Trouble with riding the tiger, son,”
says Cecil, “Is it’s bloody hard to get off.”
This isn’t an end to it I promise
myself.
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